it is 24 feb 2009
we have come a looooong way. literally.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
its our story, so far..
from days in cj...

first month together

then before we knew it, the sixth (this bouquet nicer than my valentines one!!)

and so on and so forthhh... it became financially unwise to blow our budget every month. hahaha(:

i was sceptical about this. i was. i never knew how long we would last. and i was wary things might get awkward in class if we fell apart, but we got through that, and slowly, it gave me confidence, in us (:

but then i had to go, i had to leave, and it was my decision. he was crushed, but instead of giving up, he came to find me. for that two weeks, things were perfect(:
and so this was valentines, in perth, just one year ago (:


i came back as often as i can(: and spent as much time as i can... thank god for mutual friends(:
haha this was night safari outing with yl and sl as well (:


Sure, it did get lonely being in another country. but he made sure i was happy. skype, msn and starhub websms became our best friend. and he was there for me. no, he wasnt 2422 miles away, just a phonecall.
so, on my twentieth birthday... (:


i know i dont exactly have the perfect words and everything, but this has honestly been the rollercoaster ride of my life. we have underlying problems that surface now and again, arguments that last us through the nights. there have been tears, anger, fear... that threatens us and makes us believe that we won't be able to pull through.

But then again, the happiness that this relationship brings, is not something easily found. it may not come easy, but when it does, it is worth it. and i dont know whats going to happen, or whether the distance will strain us. but we try, hard as hell, to keep this going. eugene, is my boyfriend, my best friend, my confidante. he makes me smile, laugh, cry, scream, love... whatever will happen, will happen. in the meantime, this is enough for me(:

happy 3rd anniversary baby!
i love you, more than i have 3 years ago, if thats even possible (:


i am tired.

its been a long long week, for everyone i think. i am missing smiles ): sleep is priority now. short entry cos i bumped across this entry more than 4 years ago... when i was picking out my sec 4 graduation night dress

" actually i was really really picky then decided that i was realll tired of shopping. cheryl officially proclaims that she is NOT a shopping person. so yeah i got so sick of shopping i plopped down and refused to look at anything else. i was like "okay that'll do" "yes its ok" so bascially, i didnt do much shopping. "

hahaha. its amazing that in four years, what brought me so much pain and all, gives me the greatest pleasure now. shopping is my drug, other than -you of course (:


its another lonely day.

its annoying being here, and having no one to talk to. it just fustrating, i wish cherry was still staying here... i am bored and i really need someone to talk to! this time back, its hard to adjust. there's just no one to really help me cope. met up with chloe first thing i am back, cos i can always count on her to go out with me haha. well, school has started. at least i am kept a little busy. plus, i have got sooo many things to do -lose weight, ensure exchange goes smoothly, keeping sane... i hope carol comes back sooooon, she will keep me sane! CAROL i need you to make perth bearable!!! haha.

oh, and i really miss this person, too much):
and this picture makes me smile ahahahha where got people rub eyes so cute one.


anyway, a couple photos from valentines, when i insisted on neoprints(:



okayy, im bored in perth, my room's a mess, the sun's a bitch, but i am getting tanner, so i shall not complain. haha. i feel like crap these days, i dont know why, its like i am floating around, i missed a tute, thinking it didnt start this week, but i have another lecture tomorrow. anddd, i need to start working. money is scarce these days.

i dont know how to get started on exercising man, itsssss excruciatingly hard its not even funny. i made a deal, i have to stick by it. NEEEED to lose weight, aunty says its obvious that i put on weight, omg wanna cry already... ):

SCREAAAAAMMMMMMMSSSSSS!!!!

This whole thing, its not easy. being away, its eats me up inside. slowly, surely. there's something about this place that just sucks the LIFE out of me. its like SMU for eugene. hahaha. well, mambo for them tonight. and zzz for me.

i wish for something more than this.

ahhhh, damn incoherent. i cant put thoughts out into words man, how do people do that.. grr. nevermind, i shall look forward to lecture tomorrow. im going to meet nishaaa, stupid girl haven seen her in a zillion years please...

i need to dress better for school. i got SNUBBED in a tank a denim 2quarts... i hate matt. hahaha, okay, back back back to life.. i want update from rachel, talk to me!!!!! i need a bit of news and gosssip to hold me intact!


il be back soon
so you wont have time to miss me
look after my heart
i've left it with you (:

im back in perth... it sucks being back ): but i have to deal i guess... vday was sweet, although the idea of me going back the next day was abit moodkill, but i enjoyed myself still and i love eugene for planning the day for me, even though we had to wait a zilllionnnn years for our food! haha(: my roses are not blooming according to my mom) haha.

i need to stop eating comfort food. i shall settle my sianess with sleep instead.. okay, i have a ton of free time, but just no mood to blog.. toodles:)